Today was my first appointment with the nurse and doctor. I had history and physical exam at the same time. So far as everything is fine, my weight and my blood pressure. I also had had a blood test, boy! i am already immune to needles. I'll be going back next week for an ultrasound to know how far along i really am now since they only based it with the last day i stop taking my birth control pills. The nurse says i am approximately on my 8 weeks and 6 days now. So next week i will know exactly how far along i am now and i will also get to hear the baby's heartbeat if we can.
Now i still don't feel safe. i am worried, i admit that! Maybe i will only feel relieved when i hear the heartbeat. I already had a trauma with my first pregnancy, we didn't hear the heartbeat. and after a few days it was gone. So with this one, i am hoping and praying that we could hear it. This is the only way i can breath without worrying about it again. Sometimes i can't help but to have negative thoughts again. There are a lot of "what if's" goin on in my mind. Oh boy! what can i do. eventhough i dont want to, i can't avoid it. Well i guess, i need a lot of prayers and a lot of care with my health especially on my food intake. Need prayers and good advices for pregnancy everyone!!